Providence and Being Led
Must post as a praise and testament of God's glory!
For my second and final year in grad school, my internship has to match my concentration. Rather than just assigning students to any agency, we have to choose 3-4 agencies from a pre-approved list and interview at each of them, just like a regular job interview. I went to four very nerve-wracking interviews during mid-April. I went in with strong ideas of where I would want to go; after the interviews, my mind was changed, but still had pretty strong ideas.
Actually, after the interviews, one was so good and exciting; they even told me during the interview that they liked me and that they were interested, but I would have to wait until they gave their answers, I gave my answers, and my school paired me with the right placement. But I came out of the interview that day with a huge smile on my face, called my parents right away...I was praying really hard to get it.
Flash-forward to a week ago: I get a call from my field supervisor...I got the internship! Praise God for His gracious hand!
I've really been struggling to be content with where I am at this point in my life, wondering if I should have gone out adventuring with all my peers from college and whatnot. I yearn sometimes to be out traveling the world and having exotic experiences! And yet it is here, in my more "normal" life at home, that the doors are opening, that God is granting me the desires of my heart, that He is gently urging me to finish well and give my all to the studies at hand. They may be going out there now, but this is preparation time for me; who knows what the future brings?
I feel as if God is especially gracious towards me, I see His hand very tangibly in my life sometimes. Already this is one of many instances where I have desired to be granted entry into some place and He has given it to me: college internship, summer mission trip, graduate school, internship position. Pairing this with what I see in His Word, and though I am still very anxious about getting it wrong, discernment is hard to miss for me sometimes...
There are times when I wonder whether I will hear His voice wrong, or I discern something totally weird and incorrectly. But surely not if I truly seek Him? He makes all my paths straight, all my ways sure. I'm very sure that I don't deserve to have so many of these opportunities laid before me, and yet I am privileged to participate in them.
This has been a blessed year, challenging but full of His love. I am filled with wonder.
Awesomesauce. (:
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